One year ago, today I sat in my friend Amanda’s apartment in DC and decided to “bite the bullet” and move back home to Atlanta.
It was one of those “wine and empathy” kinds of nights. I had just left what was supposed to be my “post-MBA dream job” and was a little frustrated at myself and the situation for falling short of my expectations. Even though I had final-round interviews set up with a couple of firms in Atlanta later that week, I wasn’t really sure if this was the right path.
I went through a lot after that night in my friends’ apartment and not all of it was good. There was a lot of self-doubt, a little anger and a lot of soul-searching. Luckily though, I landed more on my feet than I could have ever imagined. I ended up in a position that afforded me the chance to see what I could do, without limits.
It’s a pretty cool feeling.
This blog is about telling the next chapter in my story. Sure, I’ll relate things from the past and readers will definitely get a heavy dose of my point of view on things. Before I completely close the previous chapter though, I do want to say something. Things would not have turned out as good as they did without a belief that being irrepressible is a good thing.
In fact, if I’ve learned anything in the past year – it’s that irrepressible is something everyone should aspire to. People should be irrepressible about their own instincts. They should be irrepressible about finding a better way of doing things. They should be irrepressible in standing up for their own value regardless of some that might say otherwise.
Life is too short to live in a homogenous fantasy that says that you don’t have the right to disagree. Being irrepressible is the only true way to ensure that you are living up to your own full potential.
I now think back on that night in DC and realize it was a turning point. Sure, things won’t always go my way. However, the experience of moving back has validated that though it might be the bravest and craziest thing you can ever be, the fight for being yourself is worth it.
SO what if I am outspoken, irrepressible and more valuable to the teams I work with because of it. I embrace those traits even if it means I have to search harder for a place that fits with that mentality. The rest…well, it’s just friggin’ peachy ;-).